It all started when I was 12 years old. I was kind of chubby, so I decided to change and started to skip meals. Then, after losing some weight, I began to eat 5 small meals a day. The problem was I was way too excited about meal time. I would wait until lunch and eat even thought I wasn't hungry. When I became very skinny, I started to eat a lot. I went up to 60 kg (I'm 1'70m) and realized that I was eating like a pig. I was tired of being so aware of meal time and not listening to my body. I decided to go on another diet and went down to 54kg. I couldn't control what i ate because i would either restrict or overeat and then feel very guilty. Now Im trying to end this cycle, but I've been eating like a pig for two months (luckily I only gained 1 kg). I cant stop binging and thinking about food. My life is food. I live to eat. Im now 16 and I want to be happy and eat just when im hungry, like everyone else. Help me pleasee!