Hi everyone, I'm new here and I've been thinking about reaching out for advice for sometime but I've been frightened lol
I'm 14 years old, 5'3 and I weigh roughly around 8st, which is about a normal weight I believe - but I really don't have a good relationship with food.
I restrict myself to 800-900 calories a day, and I try to eat as minimally as possible at breakfast (sprinkle of cereal and almond milk) and lunch (couple bits of bread) as my dad cooks some really calorific dinners (in my eyes).
Luckily I recognised I had an issue back in early October (this all started around mid-September, so I haven't been struggling for long) when all I was living on was porridge, lentil soup and apples. I've been given a diet plan so I can get all my essential nutrients back, and I don't exercise anymore (I used to do an hour of cardio a day, but I don't have the energy anymore).
Anyway, I've been ignoring my diet plan as whenever I drink milk (which comes up often), I feel seriously sick, so my parents have advised that I don't drink that much of it as I may have developed an intolerance. This has led to me just ignoring half the other things on my plan - I'm restricting again, I have an urge to exercise, and I feel suicidal. Again.
I know I don't suffer from any eating disorders specifically (at least, I think), but I know my eating is disordered, if that makes sense?
Any advice would be greatly appreciated, I really don't want to slip back into how I was last month x