I received my diagnosis letter from the consultant yesterday. It was strange seeing the words anorexia nervosa in black and white on a page relating to me. I went to the gp in June because I had started purging which scared me. At the time my weight and bmi were within the healthy range so the gp wasn't concerned but referred me to the mental health team because of all the issues going on at the moment. From that pre-assessment I was referred to the eating disorders team but I kind of expected them to say I was overreacting and don't have a problem and maybe I'd be put on a waiting list for some therapy at some point.
I had my pre-assessment with the Ed team in September and was shocked to get the call the following week to say I had been placed on the priority waiting list for one to one therapy and also receiving weekly outreach appointments. The consultant requested to see me rather than just oversee my care, which was a mighty uncomfortable appointment but even hearing the things they were saying I struggled to accept them, kind of don't see these things as relating to me, maybe it's a denial thing, burying my head in the sand or the Ed voices are just stronger than the rational ones, I don't know? My weight and bmi has continued to fall and my behaviours have not changed.
Getting the letter yesterday has left me feeling strange. It's there in black and white but I don't accept it. My bmi is only just under 18 so not that low. I accept I have an unhealthy relationship with food and use it to control and distract from feeling emotions and dealing with issues so therapy will hopefully be beneficial, but I just wondered if this is a normal reaction and what others have experienced and think.