And it all come crashing down. I’ve been good, maybe too restricted but I need the control I need to feel in control and when I feel I’m loosing it with everything around me food helps me. It’s not always the healthiest choice but it’s what I need.
But this weekend, I have had a big family meal with my brothers and everyone, it was lovely, but I hated every minute. Big family meal= lots of food. And being expected to eat lots of food!
I feel gross now but it’s my lack of self control that is even worse!! I didn’t want to eat all the dinner, but I did. it was like I needed to- a binge I was on the verge of losing it. Totally utterly loosing it!
I’m a gross disgusting fat mess.