So for the past 3 and a half years now I have never got my full energy back. Nor felt quite normal since then. I started off with anorexia .. didn't fully get help cause of financial reasons. Relapsed on and off cause I didn't know how to get away from anorexia. Around year 3 I finally got diagnosed with POTS. I also died by a cardiac arrest but I wasn't revived. I know how that sounds you can decided to believe me or not. But that hurt. From then on my heart would hurt off and on. The doctors said up until now that there was no damage. I've learned that people that tend to die from a ed sometimes don't show damage even after their dead. But the cause is obvious.. their heart. It stinks because doctors really only have the tip of the ice burg of knowledge. I've taken it upon myself to be mainly my own. I only trust around 4 doctors out of the other 7 I've seen. Why because my research has actually paid off and I've felt better on some occasions. Anyways.. last December I relapsed so bad.. the worst I've ever been. My heart was hurting more than ever and I became like a skeleton. I had gone through another traumatic event and went off the deep end. I've been making an effort to truly recover. Accepting it. I want to .. I want to live and love life. Before I relapsed hugely I was sick off of many meds i was on. Even meds that cause me to lose my appetite. I was in a wheel chair and was basically a vegetable at the time ( sorry for the term). I was completely disabled and couldn't even look at particular things because they would make me so sick. I would drule on my side and stare at walls all day long. That was for months. I went out on a limb and went off the meds safely. I couldn't eat much without my stomach reacting badly. I did my research on that. Gave it time.. avoided foods and added some natural healing remedies.. lost faith in the process. And hey 4 months later I could eat small amounts of the foods I couldn't. 8 months total.. my stomach was healed. Which leads me to now. I've recovered much of my weight and my blood doesn't pool ( that I know of ) anymore. I've kept up my electrolytes, depression meds, getting around to iron. Still off an on with food but eating more than I used to. And keeping up with it more than I used to. I'm able to do a little more. I should probably mention I was an excessive exerciser and run distance. I brought it down to once a week. And have felt better when I do run now. Not nearly as weak and sick.. I can run the same 4 to 5 mile distance. I don't go to the gym anymore for now. I don't do anything else other than sleep A LOT.. trying to eat more consistently.. self care, run once a week, try to sleep the best I can... acting class and music class.. Which I barley have enough energy for.. and church. I used to be a lifeguard but quit due to feeling more fatigued. I used to get sick in the sun too until then. I've realised baby steps go a long way. I've given you guys the short unorganized version. Which brings me to now. My iron is borderline. But I'm wondering how long I'll feel this fatigued.. Because despite my chronic illnesses.. they were rooted from my anorexia as I know of. Everything I've came up with has linked to food and the body of course missing something. I was wondering if anyone could relate and maybe had some suggestions. Given that they understand. Maybe I should get in contact with the eddietician again? Ive only had one meal plan set with her.