Going in circles

[Lord99]

After admitting to my mum everything the other day we visited the doctor only for him to push me away and tell me to figure it out for myself, I felt really defeated after pouring my heart out to him for a good 20 mins and felt like I was wasting his time. After finally plucking up the courage to make the first move I feel crushed and like I'm not getting anywhere has this happened to anyone else ?? I don't know what my next move should be.

[crazycrossstitcher]

Suggest you go to another GP in the practise - also you could contact ABC/BEAT - both have a great deal of info and confidential help lines - do report the GPs answer to your concerns to them as they have contacts in parliament - more and more of us are in the same position as you - despite the promises made about more support for those with mental health issues.

[Icanhelpyou5]

Hi dear. Yeah I experienced the same thing when I had my eating disorder a few years back and my school nurse who was so worried about me, called the "professionals" for help. Well, in the end of the day I helped myself out of it as they just announced when they saw me: "You look so well, I mean, you are slim but you are not so bony as you said you were. You are being very open about your experiences with the disease and you have a very positive attitude towards getting better so I think you don't need to start having appointments with us." I was so shocked at what they said, I didn't know if I should have laughed or cried. I told them that the disease is not what you see on the outside (losing weight) but on the inside (thinking I'm fat and hating the way I look). The problem with a lot of doctors, nurses and therapists is that, they don't have personal experience in having an eating disorder. They can only see what we are physically going through but they don't understand what we are mentally and emotionally going through. To some it might be stupid and strange we just want to starve ourselves. That's why they were telling me "eat eat eat, as much as you want and can." Well, I did and that led to guzzling and guzzling led to vomiting. I couldn't control myself again so I developed bulimia. So actually, those doctors made me worse.

Now I'm a born again Christian and I believe it was just God that saved me from the disease at that time. Then, I didn't have any friends or even strangers around me who could have advised me or helped me to get healed. I just got this natural desire to live and not die and I knew that the only way to get better is to eat. Normally. In a healthy way. To accept myself the way I am. To do exercise and every possible thing in a healthy way that can get me to the looks I want. Never compare yourself to others or try to be like others because you were not created to be like them. You were created to be like you and that' s what makes you so special and beautiful. Don't allow your body to rule you. Rule your body! Be strong dear. You will make it! <3

Love, survivor of anorexia/bulimia