I have battled anorexia for 44 yrs on and off. I have beaten her multiple times. but here I am facing that voice again and I am angry and scared. she usually pops up when I am under stress or feeling depressed but for the first time she creeped up when I am actually happy. I try and talk about it with close friends and my husband but they don't understand. I feel very alone right now. I tried eating protein this morning and I gagged at the thought and heard her saying " really fat ass you need that". I don't know what triggered this so I don't know how to stop her this time. so scared.