I dont know if I have an eating disorder or not. When it first started I knew what it was and that it can kill you but I didn't care because it would mean skinny. I'm only 14 and 67kg. Anyway so I started out diet and Exercise normally for about 2 weeks then when i realised I wasn't getting skinny I started fasting every now and then. I wouldn't eat breakfast,lunch or any snacks but I had to eat dinner then after that I would binge and sometimes purge. weight would consume my every thought I would see people walking and think I'd like to look like that or I could be skinnier then her. At this time my friends at school noticed I wasn't eating and I said it was because I wanted to be healthier and there wasn't any healthy food in the house to eat so I just don't eat as much but still eat. Sometimes I would also binge and then throw up as a way to not gain weight then after a month and a half or so I thought I'm doing very bad I'm going to be normal so I started exercising normal and eating healthier. This was good for a while like 3 weeks then I realised I wasnt losing weight so I would eat breakfast lunch and dinner normally but in snacks I would binge and purge. I'm scared because no one knows about this and I can't tell my parents because they will think I'm weird and a loser so I would like someone to please tell me what I should do??