I think I may have an ED, but I don't know for sure. Can anyone advise me?

[-Mahi-]

Hello. My name is Mahi.

If you haven't seen me around before, it's probably because I'm new here.

I'm 16 years old, 5'5, and 110 pounds.

I know this doesn't sound that bad, but ED's are characterized by mental characteristics. So hear me out--

My family life is complicated. My parents argue a lot, and I feel like I'm never good enough for them because of what they say in their fits of rage about me.

They make me feel ugly, worthless, fat, and all the like.

Naturally, all I ever wanted was control...and I fulfilled that desire through pushing myself.

Seeing how little I can eat, seeing how much I can exercise...

...just yesterday I ran 5 miles and ate somewhere around 500 calories. (I can pull this off when my parents aren't around. When they are around, I have to be careful about this.)

I don't know how to curb these feelings. I want to stop myself before I end up damaging my health, permanently.

Can anyone help?

Thanks in advance!

[Agora1]

Mahi, you are a very bright young lady. You're right 5'5'' 110lbs. sounds like a good weight for a teen however with the need for control you may be going down the wrong path.

I'm sorry that you are getting caught up in your parents arguments regarding you. That's sad. You know that running 5 miles and eating 500 calories is going to play havoc with your health. This is a situation that is so easy to lose control of. I'm glad you see it as a dangerous choice and want to stop.

Is there someone at school you can talk with? (or is school out for the summer) You need to talk with a doctor and let them know what is going on in your family. You need therapy since you won't get the support you need at home. Home sounds like a very stressful place for you. A professional will be able to advise you as to the proper channels to take. I wish you well Mahi. I've seen what it's done to my daughter. I can only wish you for you to turn things around before you go any further. My best to you. x

[-Mahi- in reply to Agora1]

Thanks for responding! It means a lot. I'll be sure to keep what you said in mind.

[joanna21]

Hi Mahi I agree with Agora you need to talk to someone asap before the Ed can get a grip on you.You will benefit from support from your family so if it could also be discussed in a calm way with them as well at some point that would be good too.The more support you can get the better. Your family need to take advice on how to help you and the arguments need to stop for your sake.You need a calm supportive home environment. With love xx