yesterday was so bad. I was all right in the morning then about 11am I went on a binge. I felt so awful after I wanted to take my own life. I only managed to cope because I put my head phones on and blocked out the voices which where telling me that I was a loser and fat.I just couldn't cope. Managed to get through the day but had to have more of my anxiety medicine than usual. Gonna go to the Drs Tuesday.
Today got up and I'm still frightened about what happened but feeling a bit like I can cope. Not myself at all plus I'm very dizzy when I stand. Hope today goes quick because I want to go to bed, can't go to bed until 9pm because I have my daughter and husband. I'm so depressed.