So last year I got really obsessed with my weight and went on so many diets where I would eat only salad etc. My friends got worried and eventually I realised that starving myself was not the answer. I took up cross-country running which tuned out I was quite good at but the insecurities never really went away about my weight. Recently it's been getting worse and I haven't had enough energy in classes and I'm growing away from my friends because of it. They noticed and also started teasing me about how health obsessed I am. I have noticed how pale/tired I look sometimes and I'm getting worried. I know I'm not fat or chubby at all, I'm underweight, it's not that I don't like my body, I love my body, it's just that I don't want my body to go away.
I know I need to eat more to get better but every time I try it's like I get a little thought in the back of my head going 'but look at how many calories there are' or 'you don't need that, you're fine' or something similar.
I also know I'm not fully anorexic, I do make sure I actually eat 3 meals a day and stuff but I think because I'm doing all this exercise i need more energy food but I still have a insecure mind
I don't want to tell my family because that would be like admitting I'm actually ill, I don't want to be ill and I know I can stop. I.WILL.SURVIVE! If you have any non pill taking /tell parenting solutions please say
Thank you for reading ik that was very long