Hey! I'm new here, just starting off with that.
So I've always had issues surrounding eating for a long time. I used to not eat for long periods of time and diet a lot (I was about 6st at 16). But that went away for about a year and I've found myself putting weight back on.
I'm now 5ft3 and I weigh around 9st (I don't know exactly because I'm not allowed near weighing scales because I become weight obsessed very quickly) and I've noticed the more weight I put on the more obsessed I'm getting over food again. I was never diagnosed with an eating disorder because I refused to go to the doctors about it but I figured it was nothing the last time - just stress. I'm finding myself struggling to eat full meals because I weigh so much, I don't actually want to eat anything anymore, and when I do I'm just feeling and wanting to be sick.
I know I need to diet but I don't have the motivation too. Today I got a new job and had to measure myself for the new uniform and I am 36 bust, 25 waist and 36 hips and it's making me feel awful about the numbers being so large, despite the fact people tell me I'm slim.
I've noticed as I've got older I'm seeing myself as more over weight and I'm so unhappy that I have restricted certain things out of my diet. But it's not like I hate food, I don't I actually really like food - just not eating it. But that's normal right?
Is this an issue? Should I go and see my doctor about it? I don't feel like I should but I need outsiders opinions on it.
Thanks a bunch