I need a bit of support to overcome the same hurdle that keeps making me relapse in recovery. Im still underweight and really want to get to a healthy BMI as myself and husband are going through treatment for a baby. Everytime I weigh myself and see no improvement I add a few more calories. Everytime I do though, I exercise more!!!
I'VE not dropped 2 pounds since last week but am frightened that I just can't eat anymore. Im already adding full fat milk and larger snacks/suppers to my meal plan along with the normal 3 meals and snacks per day!!! I'm at a loosing battlet and can't admit to myself that I'm still fearful of gaining weight.
It hurts because I want a baby so much but deep down I question how strong I am as I can't seem to fight this voice in my head.
I compensate to much for the hard work I out into my eating by then going in long walks or running up and down stairs to burn of calories.
If I feel full and bloated I punish myself and the constipation is horrendous and makes me do endless amounts of ecerise.
I get all menu plan organisation used for the week and quite good at sticking to it but it seems a waste of time if im just going to burn of all the caloris again. I really do have a hue fear of rejection once I'm fat
once I finally reach a good weight what if it doesn't stop?
I need some support so badly and tis to help me in my journey to weight gin which I hope won't take up to many more.months of my life!!!!