I have never been diagnosed with any type of an eating disorder, but I do have severe depression and anxiety. I used to have a self harm problem, but since I stopped my obsessive eating has gotten out of control. I'm counting calories constantly, I eat about 250 through the day, but then I binge a little in the evening, and end up having 600/700 overall, which I hate myself for - even though it's still too low. I'm really underweight - 45kg and I'm 5"9. I'm always dizzy, my muscles ache, I feel exhausted walking up the stairs. I lay in bed all day. I suffer from really bad migraines. My issue is I can't eat without beating myself up. I've decided I don't want this for myself anymore, I got rid of all of my calorie counting apps and stuff, but the feelings are still there. I'm too scared to admit how out of control it's gotten, I'm terrified my doctor will put me in hospital if she knows why I'm so underweight. What do I do now?