Not sure where to start, I have never really admitted this to other people. I have lived with an ED really for so long that it's just my life now. I started with Anorexia after the birth of my first child , I was 20 and I dropped to 7st which for me looks horrendous. I am now in my sixties and still bulimic, but, I don't lose any weight, in fact I'm putting weight on. It's that evening meal, I just can't stop myself from vomitting after eating. I am disgusted with myself but I really don't know how to stop and I know it has to be affecting my general health. I'm almost frightened to stop, I must say I did totally stop each time I was pregnant and breast feeding. I was teased at school for being a"fatty", my husband cheated on me with someone " thin" and when I was 42 I was told my father sexually abused my brother, my niece, probably myself and possibly could have done the same to my children. I'm still with my husband although not really happy. I'm sorry for offloading so much, it's the first time I have but I just don't know where to start to try and change my life, I want to stop but as I'm sure most of you will understand when I say " HOW"?