Hi everyone i am 15 years old i am 4ft 11 90 pounds and 41kg. i currently attend cahms but it dosnt seem to help. my appointments get cancelled and i feel that they are avoiding me. ive also been meaning to see a doctor but they are too busy. ive stopped making myself sick for a few months now but now ive made myself sick 3 times in a row so far. everytime i eat i feel im just going to gain more weight. ive tried starving myself once or twice. the worst time was when i had a tuna sandwich just for 1 day. the next day at school i felt so ill and i felt like fainting. i drank water and had my dinner for once i never eat in school or have breakfast. i want to be a normal 15 year old. i dont want eye bags on my face and look like a zombie every day. i dont want to also look depressed and freak others out. please help!