I have suffered with anorexia/bulimia for about 20 years. It's pretty miserable but the last 6 months have been awful. I feel suicidal nearly all the time. I am hoping to get a placement in The Aspen Centre, Warwickshire for real, full on help to beat this. But I could be waiting at least 2 months and I just don't know how I can keep going until then. My life feels like it's just totally falling apart.
My children are with their dads as I have been too ill to look after myself, let alone them. They are my reason for living and now I feel I have nothing to live for.
I am finding it almost impossible to bring myself to eat and when I do I just can't keep it down.
Has anyone got any advice on how I can pick myself up out of this dark place?