I'm eighteen and currently only weigh about 34kg. I've read and read and read about anorexia a million times and while I do have most of the symptoms, the one that I cannot relate to at all, is the want to be skinny. I absolutely hate being skinny and I am sick of being fatigue, mentally and physically exhausted. I don't have a problem with body image, but I do acknowledge the fact that I do starve myself. A lot. I avoid eating at all costs but I also really want to gain weight? Is this anorexia or something completely different?