So sometimes I feel like I'm a huge piece of crap. I'm definitely not anorexic and I'm not a bulimic and at most if I actually went to get help I'd be diagnosed with EDNOS I know that. The thing is you hear about all these people angry at girls that go on pro Ana websites and how dumb and attention seeky they are. And I realize I am one of those girls. I go on the pro Ana sites and I have had Ana buddies and sometimes I feel like crap for it because maybe I really do just want attention right? But at the same time if that's the way I want attention don't I still get the courtesy of an Ed? And I know that's weird to say but think about why is it that I or anyone feels like this is the only way to get attention. I still feel fat I still feel ugly I still feel like a waste of life. So why am I being criticized for their way I choose to go about fixing myself. I mean I know it's not good to want an eating disorder but that doesn't change the fact that I want one. That I want to be disciplined and that I want to be thin.