I feel like it's a mix between anorexia and binge eating
Over summer I went from 9 stone 5lbs to 7 stone 3lbs at my lowest through just having no appetite and exercising lots to lose weight. I'd try and exercise every day, aiming for a 500 calorie burn at least. I loved how I looked and was so proud.
My friends and family were worried about me and encouraged me to put on weight through exercising less and eating more. So I actively tried but I felt so stressed out from people it turned to over-eating. In 4 weeks I've put on 10lbs so am now about 8 stone. Over the past week I've eaten really well and got back to the gym so was feeling better but my housemates moved back to uni last night and all got a takeaway which I refused and they started to stress me out by saying I should eat more and they weren't going to allow me to lose weight. So today I binged on a whole box of cereal (like 750g) and currently feel huge and sick and have even tried to make myself throw up. I regret it so much but I feel so fat and am getting so fat, I hate how I look!
Every time I look into the mirror I just want to cry. I have 5 freshers events next week and the alcohol calories are really stressing me out and I'll look so fat in everything. I want to go back to under 7 stone 7lbs so badly. But I do feel like this obsession with my weight is taking over my life, I can't concentrate on anything else, like my dissertation (sure I'm going to end up failing it) and I know people are worried about me and I'm missing out on so much normal stuff a 20 year old should take part in. But I just don't think people realise how bad things are for me.
I just don't know what to do