I'm a 21 year old girl and I don't really know what to do anymore. I don't think i'm too small. I'm 5ft10 and a size 6-8. I don't know how much I weigh because I really don't want too know. I absolutely hate my body, its huge and just awful to look at. I really struggle to eat properly. I can normally manage one meal a day, and then just small bits during work when I get hungry. If i'm being really honest, sometimes I make myself sick to get rid of the food. I'm struggling to keep things together. It's got to the point where what I eat and how my body looks affects every part of my day. I'm crying a lot, getting in a panic and not wanted to leave the house. I'm ruining my relationship with my boyfriend and my friends. I know my boyfriend is really worried, he wants me to talk to someone but I have no idea where to start. I think people will just laugh at me if I tell them i'm struggling with food, i'm too big. It's getting out of control and I don't know what to do anymore.