I've suffered for anorexia for 3 years now. I struggle for months then manage to start to try to eat a bit more and cut back on my exercise. But then I put weight on and it freaks me out. I feel I look so fat at the minute and am desperate to slim down again. I know I shouldn't listen to the AN voice but its sooo strong I can't block it out. Has anyone else been here? What did you do? Only eating 400 calories a day and doing up to 2 hrs exercise.