I will be 50 at the end of the month and was diagnosed 2 months ago. I am on a leave at work because I can’t focus. I am not sure what to do now. I am currently on Concerta and have had bad side effects. I wanted to be evaluated because after reading about it, I realized that this was me. I started a new job last January and I was able to get by then. Now, I seem worse. In addition to that diagnosis, I had lost my mother last March and was so busy taking care of others that I realized I did not take the time to grieve. I am dealing with delayed grief. I feel lost and do not want to return to my job because I have realized that it is not a job that I am suited for. So, I am using the avoidance and procrastination and feel stuck and unable to move. I can’t hide forever!
Has anyone had any success with Concerta? Is there another one I should try?
Thank you for reading.
hey jules, sorry you're having such a difficult time and i'm sorry for your loss. i was diagnosed with ADHD last september, and went out on leave too for about 3 weeks. i felt immense guilt for not working everyday, and pushed to return to work which exacerbated everything and now i'm back out. moral of the story, don't push yourself to return to a job that completely drains you, because you deserve to put that energy into yourself for a change. you deserve some room to breathe! a quick chat with HR might be helpful too. these situations could be covered under short term disability.
for meds, i take adderall. it doesn't solve for everything but it does help quiet my mind when it's firing in every possible direction. this allows me to focus and complete a single task vs. simultaneously working on 13 tasks at once and feeling useless because i finished none of them. just having all of that extra clutter in my head alone was enough to block me from making any real progress. not sure if you're struggling with something similar.
i've been off work since march this time with a huge mindset shift--i'm not returning until i feel better, even if i lose my job. basically, i said f!@# it!! i'm really making strides. i'm glad i chose to focus on myself, instead of back-to-back meetings and office politics . treating this stuff IS the harder path, you're already so brave for taking time off work and looking after yourself. thanks for sharing your story and being vulnerable!!
Thank you soo much. It helps to know I’m not the only one!
Anytime! I'm really glad I discovered this community. Hang in there.