I'm new to this and I've never actually joined a support group ever. I have been unofficially diagnosed with ADHD for about 2 years. I feel like I've taken advantage of that diagnosis though and I haven't done enough to change the behaviors that are hurting my partner. I feel powerless and I feel like medications and therapy are helping some but I feel so powerless to change. My partner loves me so much because they've stuck it out with me for so long but it really is coming to an end. I want to change and I love them so much. I just keep failing over and over though. Every app or behavior change I ultimately end up forgetting or not taking seriously after just a couple of days.. I don't do the research my partner does. I just feel like this will ultimately end like every other relationship I've had.
The worst part is that I've been on medication that has helped and been with really phenomenal therapists not to mention how much my partner does for me so this is 100% me. Saying it is easy. I'm 100% the problem. The toughest part is making the choice to change. I just don't know what to do. My choices are hurting the people I love and I am not doing enough to make the right choices.. I keep failing. I am sorry for the rant and pity party. I just feel lost.