I'm new to this sort of community, and it's been really cool to read through posts and see the community support each other. For reference, I'm a female college student.
I've suspected for a while that I might have ADHD. I tend to have a hard time staying organized and attentive, as well as setting and meeting goals, even if I make the effort to break down tasks into smaller steps. I also tend to do work in big bursts, at the last minute, and am very easily distracted. I find it so hard to just sit down and do one thing at a time because I feel like I'm always looking for more stimulation, and I've gotten into a pattern where I feel like I NEED that stimulation in order to start working, even when it's very clear that I'm less productive with it.
This hadn't been too much of a problem before I got to college, since I had a lot of structure and daily deadlines that kept me on track. I was even very high achieving, so I never thought it was worth doing anything about. But since I've been in college for the last couple of years and have to have more control over my own time management and non-academic tasks, I've been feeling more overwhelmed. My habits have remained, but they are more mentally destructive since getting behind and putting off work for whatever new obsession I have or just to avoid it makes me feel depressed/anxious, which makes my habits worse (my sleeping and eating schedules are also horrible), which makes me feel more depressed/anxious, and on and on. This has gotten so much worse during the pandemic, to the point where my work is being very adversely affected; before now, I've always been able to regroup and pull things together in time for it not to affect my on-paper academic life.
At this point, I'm not sure if I have ADHD, anxiety, depression, or any combination of them. I saw from some poking around online that ADHD in adult women may be caught later in life because we don't tend to express the behavioral disruptions that flag young boys for ADHD, so I thought that this might apply to me. Since most of the people here have diagnoses, what do y'all think? Is it actually ADHD?