SO SAD AND FED UP

This whole thing is getting so hard for me!! I wish so many times I would not wake up in the morning. It’s just to much. Every day I just cry and cry. If I knew the right cocktail of pills to take to get out of this life I would. This is not living.

[Joanna197]

I understand. Monday i go see a psych dr and i am hoping to get help

[LoveDogs71]

Monkeylee. Sorry to hear what you are going through. I totally get it. I feel that way today. Today after my appointment with a np. at the ADD Az. clinic felt like a waste of time. The NP. didn't even look at my file after I filled it out and the first thing she says to me when she meets me. " .....Do you have a son?"

No hello or how do you do and my name is ..... Wtf?! I answer, hello, no...I don't have a son. I don't have

Kids. Whatever happened to manners from nps'. (Nurse practitioner).

No, counseling or group meetings but they do have referrals and testing for ADHd. The np. asks me what medications I take, which ones I have taken for ADHd . I tell her which ones I have taken and didn't work. NP. ordered Ritalin and Adderall at the pharmacy. I told her I didn't like Ritalin because I didn't like how it made me feel. I was willing to go back on Adderall am. & pm. I'm not taking Ritalin again.

I'm just so sick and tired of dealing with such rudeness and lack of compassion, & not listening from doctors and nps'.

I hope something good comes out of this.

I'm heading to the gym after doggie care. Take care everyone. I sure need a break from all this.

[Hidden in reply to LoveDogs71]

I hope you find a better Dr. and get on the right meds. My Dr. is really good. I’ve been seeing her for over 20 years. This last year has really stomped us. My body is not reacting to SSRI med anymore??

[LoveDogs71 in reply to Hidden]

Sounds like your body has build up a tolerance. That has happened to me last year on Wellbutrin. Changed it to Prozac. What is SSRI ?

[Hidden in reply to LoveDogs71]

SSRIs are Prozac (which ) worked great for me. Paxil, Zoloft, Effexor. Some other ones. Yes I built up a tolerance.

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Wellbutri is an SSRI too

[Iereus in reply to Hidden]

I don’t think Bupropion is an SSRI. Where did you get that understanding?

[dgs2018]

It sounds like you may be getting close to a breakthrough. Sometimes things seem very dark before something is about to change. You're smart enough to have friends and an online community and that's a good reason to think you're going to beat this thing. It may seem hard and even impossible, but please don't sell yourself short in life. Your purpose and contribution will be made apparent, if you persist. [Sorry that you're currently in the sixth realm of Hades though. That's a rough path.]

[LoveDogs71 in reply to dgs2018]

That's a very good point. Thank you. This is all coming from many years (20 years+) of disappointments having to deal with counselors, psych., Drs, who don't understand whatsoever about ADHD. Not being able to afford a psych., and health insurance only able to cover 3 sessions. Then having anxiety, and severe depression on top of that.

Then years of finding the right medication. Then years going through counseling on how to deal with my past demons. Not being able to hold a job because of my ADHD, anxiety and depression.

As that saying goes, when there is a terrible storm there is always sunshine or a rainbow on the other side.