I have good days, bad days and days in between like everyone does. I really do feel blessed to have what I have and try to keep in mind that I could have it so much worse. I try my best to have a positive outlook and attitude.
But, there are times when my adhd head completely just wears me out to the point of mental and emotional exhaustion. Constantly checking myself to see if I'm being appropriate, scared to be in social situations, being isolated because you can't relate to people and they don't want to relate to you, bad relationships, and the list goes on. I'm sure most of you can relate in one way or another.
That's when I really just think that It would have been better not to have been born at all. Is that selfish to think? Im ashamed to feel that way and I wish I didn't have those thoughts but I do. I'm tired and just want to have a moment of piece. What do you all do when you get to where I'm at?
Anyways, I just had to get that off my chest. Thank you all for listening. Tomorrow is a new day and I am gonna try harder.