I live in a very isolated area and I have no friends. I have ADHD and some autism. My doctor treats me for bipolar disorder which I don’t have and swaps one seratonin medication for another because they don’t work. I was misdiagnosed 25 years ago and nothing has worked. I’m uttterly hopeless and live in a bottom level hopelessness every day. Suicide thoughts are a form of hopelesness which is quite obsessive in my mind at this point. No one listens to me. No one sees me. I don’t exist. The mental health system in my area is broken and my doctor laughs at it and made a joke about it when I told him that the doctor in the ER had told me that.