I am new to this so I hope I do this right! I was diagnosed with ADHD at the beginning of my freshman year in college last year. They put me on methylphenidate and before I knew it, 60 pills were going missing every 2-3 days. Of course it didn't happen at first, and it took me a year to get to this point but now I can't fix it. I was just recently diagnosed with depression and I told my doctor about what I was doing with my medication so she quickly took me off that medicine and put me on vyvanse. Now to me it is a ton cleaner than my last medication, but just like the last I have gotten addicted to taking more than I'm prescribed. It has started to take a toll on my health big time. My weight is fluctuating a ton, and now I'm having to go to a cardiologist because I have severe chest pains and an irregulars heart beat. I just hate and am so ashamed of myself that I feel as if I'm not myself if I don't take the medicine..
I am so scared that I won't know when to stop until it's too late.. I just need support on how to keep calm and not chase the high of the medication. Please help. Thankyou so much.