when I was in grammer school my parents took me to doctor because I couldn't focus or follow instruction or learn in school. The Dr. put me on epileptic medication, which didn't do anything for me. I have never had a seizure. Then my folks seperated and I came to Calif to live with my older brother. He never knew I didn't go to school. I did get a job at a hospital. I was always finding jobs to do. I went to high school one the first day of my freshman year and the second time I went was the last day of my senior year. Needless to say, I never learned my 3 R"s at all. I got married and had 3 children. All of them were diagnosed with ADD and put on Retalin. They all were honor students. Grew up and left home. As I worked long hours to raise and spoil them I learned about drugs which helped me focus at work. Self medicating. Which led to divorce. My father was an abusive alcholic and now I began the alcohol abuse also. Now, at age 56, I try to go to phsyc to get Retalin for me and be treated for the ADD like my kids were; but they just want to give me all these other meds for other conditions and all they do is make me sleep my life away. I want retalin. I need something to do to occupy my self and my mind with and since I can't read my options for mental entertainment are very minimal. (Had to have my wife write this for me) She is very concerned over my handicap. Without being able to learn through reading, it narrows you outlook.