Usually I do pretty good at keeping my positive pants on and maintaining a good perspective. I’m just feeling pretty down tonight.
I’ve always known my son was different. Super smart. Very emotional. Never slept as a baby. Difficult to soothe. Epic Meltdowns.
We did PCIT for 9 months when he was 3-4, and have been in talk it out therapy pretty much ever since he was 5. We still see the same therapist every other week. The summer before second grade I finally got my husband on board and we had our son tested. Not surprisingly, ADHD combined. We started guanfacine 1mg at the beginning of 2nd grade year, and it was SO much better than 1st grade. My son is now in 3rd (has a 504 plan) and struggling with his emotions, impulses, etc. he is taking 3mg of guanfacine each day and has been for months. I could see it start to not have an effect on him a couple months ago, but my husband wasn’t ready to add another medicine. Well, after Thanksgiving he finally agreed. My sons Psychiatrist (we’ve been with him since his diagnosis), put him on a mood stabilizer - Trileptal. We stuck it out for almost 4 weeks. It was awful. I’ve never seen my son so tired, agitated, and angry as all get out. So we stopped that. So now we are back on the 3mg of guanfacine which really only dials back his energy level and no longer helps with impulse control, anger, executive functioning, etc. Ugh. Tonight I got kicked in the stomach, which is why I’m on here. I have a very demanding sales job, but I don’t need to work. I am considering either taking a leave, seeing if I can go part time or quitting all together. I love my job, but I love my son so much more and I don’t want to have all the distractions of my stressful sales job which he is always competing against for my attention. I just don’t think I’m putting in the effort where I should be. I don’t want to look back 2 years from now and wish I’d chosen a different path. Ugh. And where do we go next on meds? Psychiatrist is Leary of stimulants because he’s afraid it will make him angrier. Thoughts? Suggestions? What would you do?
Thanks for listening