Sorry that i dont blog on here much as i used to but i need to let off some steam.
It really irritates me when people try and make you feel bad for being depressed or not seeing the glass half full and not making the most of life.
I have finally figured out that the best way for me to get past this hurdle is firstly to get back on track with my health and exercise, and that means strictly calorie counting. i have put on 3 stone in a year and as well as all my other issues, this also puts me on a downer. i know what will work for me 'to start with' and that is sorting myself out physically, and so on a day to day basis i will feel better.. happy hormones and all that.
however a friend of mine keeps saying that lifes too short for strict diets, etc.etc. just have fun, you only live once, and all that. its like i'm expected to turn the switch in my head to happy all of a sudden. why is it wrong for me to want to keep fit and healthy as part of my depression programme? why cant people just understand and support. i so wish i could just eat a cake and still feel good about it but it puts me on a downer. i have so many issues i need to deal with. and i've made a plan to get physically fit and healthy for myself, for my sanity, for ME, for my kids. yet i now feel so damn guilty about it. Healthy body, healthy mind.
sorry to rant. just had to get this off my chest.