me and the father of my children have been together for 10 years, the first 3 were fantastic, i dont know when or why its gone wrong but it has, i am so depressed, i am so lonely, i hate him so much, and though he dont say it he hates me. he doesnt even complain to me anymore, he complains very loudly to the kids, about how usless i am. i get everything wrong. i am scared of leaving him, what if i lose the kids, am i a fit mother, will he turn them against me, were will i live, it's his house, my name is not on the mortgage. i dont know if i can cope on my own. sometimes i think everyone would be better of if i just disapeared.