This is my first post. I havent felt myself for about a year now. I started to notice last year when things in my life wouldnt affect me (good or bad) and it has got worse and worse (and there was nothing bad going on in my life to cause it). I now dont really care, about anything. I feel emotionally disconnected from the world around me. I dont smile much (without faking) and Ive started (in the last month) Shunning my friends and feeling like I want to just hide away. Its a beautiful day out but Im feeling like Id ratger stay in bed, I love the outdoors normally!) It also ended the beginnings of a relationship and Ive lost interest in sex/relationships entirely! I dont feel like telling people because I suspect theyll think Im depressed that Im unemployed (I was made redundant a few weeks back). Truth is, it didnt affect me much. Oh..also my mum suffers from depression off and on so it does run in the family.
I went to the doctor and talked about how I felt. She has put me on Citalopram. I have read though that It can cause a numbing of emotion and apathy? That is exactly what Im trying to get rid of! Can anyone else who has taken this shed any light on this? Ive been taking it for a week now.
Thanks everyone. Id say it means a lot that you read this but truth is...I dont care. Ha (joke)