This is proving a really bad setback. I wonder if I also have fibromyalgia.
Saturday's rat show was chaotic, as I forgot two things I needed and we arrived nearly two hours early. Lesson - do not leave all the printing to the last minute. Lesson 2 - put label size in the file name of mailmerge labels! Lesson 3. Keep my spare mains lead in my show bag. Lesson 4. Prepare some generic paperwork which would be easy to complete by hand. (I'm involved in running one of them most months.)
Still feeling shaky, low and procrastinating - the pain is a nuisance, but not feeling suicidal at present. I had a good talk on a helpline last night.
One big problem is that I have no close family and my two closest support friends - one is struggling with severe depression and sciatica herself, and the other - having moved about 20 minutes away will be moving even further away soon. He says he will still come in daily and feed the rats if I'm away and will take me to most shows as usual. (It probably surprises you all that we have RAT shows every 2-3 weeks - like "rattie Crufts!") I hoped the church would be more helpful, but most are married and there are few singles around 67.
I see my 'happy wanderer' rat - where I can't get her! Given me a new idea to implement later, though.