Where do I honestly start?! I am so angry with myself for being like this but I can't seem to find the light at the end of the tunnel. I feel like a prisoner in my own home, locked in four walls, wanting to get out, needing to get out, but unable to get myself out. I am letting my kid down, and I am starting to hate my partner for just being there. I'm not sleeping at night, reading, when I can focus, and then just want to sleep all day, and if I do get up I just sit around in my pj's and look at the mess around knowing that I should be trying to do something about it. I have had depression for several years now, and am on Citalopram, which has been "upped" in the last year. I have been off work due to a spinal problem and am awaiting an operation, so I am unable to do much for myself physically either. This makes things even worse. I don;t even want to phone my closest friends up. Is there really any way of coming out of all this? I apologise, as I am sounding extremely sorry for myself. I have deactivated my facebook account since I can't even look at the things other people are doing, I feel so jealous of them all, having a "life". I just so wish I could be like them.
Wow, what a woinderful introduction to this site... enough to put anyone off huh?! Sorry!