Today has finally arrived for me to go see CPN for on ongoing Depression/Anxiety/Panic Attacks re-occuring. I have been to CPN before & it has'nt really much bothered me.
I have'nt slept all night & I'm getting myself into such a state about going this morning. I seem to be finding it harder & harder to go out the door now unless its just up to my Brothers or Mums who both only live up the street from me.
I am on a heavy dose of medication for my illness but I dont feel like its working anymore. I'm feeling so tempted to ring & make an excuse as to why I can come.
I am going to have to go by taxi. I just cant bare the thought of getting on a bus.
I hate the way I'm feeling. I've suffered of & on 19 yrs but seem to be getting worse instead of better.