Suffering with depression for over 30 years of my life has been a very turbulent and testing life going to extramities which I will not discuss at the moment. Thinking I have conquered the most trying times in my life I live a steady life with a husband and two children, 12 and 14 who are all very understanding, although my children only know the basics of my illnes. I work part time flexible hours,along with self employment and voluntary work. After Christmas I always find it difficult to get back into some kind of routine, in fact for the last 3 weeks, along with illness I seem to have regressed back into that dark place where I have spent so many years of my life. My brain is not working properly. I have a constant headache. I ask myself questions over and over again. I need my quiet room every day for up to 3 hours at a time . I am really struggling.
Then my husband came out with the bombshell....."I have had enough of this. I have put up with this for nearly 20 years and just want a normal life".
I am gutted, I try so hard to keep everything as normal as it can be. I will have to go back to my GP and let him know, again, that I need some more help instead of just managing to get through the days.
Is it the money I ask myself? He works so hard to pay for all the bills. My little extra pays for holidays and extras. I feel really bad that I haven't earned any money for the last few weeks. He says people at his work who have depression take time off sick when they are ill but still work full time and get paid.
How do we keep the relationship going when he will always want more?