Thoughts about what I - (underline x3) want from life. That's the most important thing.

That's what'll help me beat depression and paranoia. I want to finish the MA. But I need a plan before I finish. I need to start thinking about it now. Could take this week off Uni to decide. I'm unsure about the PhD. Still might. Hard to say. Love writing. But need to think about the entire situation - i.e. life outside academia.

Even speaking to a career advisor wouldn't help - (they're useless if I don't know at the moment what I would like to do). Speaking to my mum doesn't help. I'm the only one who knows inside my head - and I don't know at the moment. There are only vague ideas.

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Think I need a new list of things to do before I turn 25. The old one doesn't seem to reflect where I am now. Needs revamping. As does this life.

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I saw something on CALM about the banning of 'lists'. Ive made so many in my time and havnt really crossed anything off. My problem with lists is i have no interest in galvanting around crossing off activities and places on my own, i want to share the experiences with people, which leaves me sitting around waiting. On ocassion where ive done a few things it took the fun out of it to not share it. If you're good on your own go for it, list away! BUT only create lists if you're going to do something about it. Enjoy life x