I've kept myself occupied and as a result have been feeling a bit better recently but have just watched an old weepie The Trap starring Oliver Reed, and Rita Tushingham who always manages to make me cry she has such huge trusting and doleful eyes and now I'm feeling sorry for myself. My children are in Beijing and Mexico City, my husband (not their Dad) has been watching tv all afternoon on a second set in another room of the house and even on Christmas Eve I'm once again on my own and wondering why I bothered to marry him when he doesn't seem to need to spend time with me.
I'm lucky, we have a lovely house, it's warm and comfortable, there's plenty of good food, I'm looking at a lovely tree and have a card which makes me smile and reminds me warmly of the ongoing support of the person who sent it.
I hope you all have a happy Christmas, especially those of who don't have any family around to keep them company. Families can be difficult too but it's always better to share life.