Hi I'm a newbie (23),
Right now I am currently stuck at home, and feel bored out of my mind. I have suffered from depression for about 7 years now. I feel like I'm stuck in a pit and can't climb out of it. But the worst part is I feel like I'm not even trying hard enough because I've given up. The last 1 1/2 year was the worst of my life... I went from doing great in school to not even being able to focus and then that turned into not being able to remember what I've learned throughout my years or if I even learned anything at all. So I dropped out of college after 2 semester's thinking I'd get better, this is my 2nd semester off now but I live in fear to go back now because i still cant remember and feel like im not putting in much effort to for fear of disappointment. I've turned lazy.. and all I feel is emptiness inside... people tell me I need to do more things but I feel like I don't really know how to even try..or where to start. I don't have any real friends. And don't have much of a support system. My parents don't understand and I feel they choose to ignore it. Any advise?