Understanding

I am 22.

3 months ago I was started on a course of sertraline for despression and panic attacks.

The last few days I've hit an all new low. The littlest thing can put me in a horrible mood, today my boyfriends son answers the phone and I flew off the handles. I'm now sat in bed sobbing my eyes out think about how bad I feel things are and how i don't know if I wanna be here anymore.

I feel so tired all day and then I come home and I'm wide awake. It's rare that I go asleep before midnight because I can't settle, I just a burst of energy from no where.

I expect my boyfriend to understand but how I can expect him to understand something I don't understand myself.

My dad was diagnosed with bipolar and I'm wondering if I am the same.

I'm feel so ridiculous writing this and now that I wrote it I realise how pathetic I sound.

I've still posted this as 5 minutes ago i felt so low. If I keep ignoring it it's only gunna get worse.

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  • Hello,

    From what i know of sertraline, is that every so often it can create mood swings and irritability, so if this continues, consult your doctor.In regard to the bipolar, it is hereditary, so you could very well have bipolar disorder.

    Feeling tired all day and feeling wired at night is related to your depression, its so difficult to enjoy things during the day so your body switches off, and when you get home to your boyfriend and your normal surroundings you feel happier and safe.

    Your boyfriend undoubtedly loves you dearly and will continue to love you no matter what. Just make sure you are letting him in to your mind and letting him try to help you.

    I recommend you do as much research as you can on sertraline, and speak to your doctor ASAP about it and bipolar.

    I wish you all the best

  • Thank you it's nice to have people to talk to that understand.

    You have all made me do a little cry with happiest and relief that I'm not the only one that sometimes feels like this.

    Sometimes I blame myself and feel that I must have done something really bad to deserve the way I feel through the bad times xx

  • Hi jessroo, I took sertraline for a while, it worked for me after the initial settling in period.it dosnt however work for everyone so it would be a good idea to see your GP and discuss your fears regarding bipolar and mood swings. You should have seen an improvement by now if the sertraline was ok for you.

  • Thank you it's nice to have people to talk to that understand.

    You have all made me do a little cry with happiest and relief that I'm not the only one that sometimes feels like this.

    Sometimes I blame myself and feel that I must have done something really bad to deserve the way I feel through the bad times xx

  • As doglover has already mentioned, it might be the sertraline that is making you more irritable. Also, what time of day do you take it? I'm just wondering if you take it in the morning could it be making you feel tired but this wears off by the evening so it feels like you're getting a burst of energy? I've never taken sertraline before so my thoughts on this aren't based on personal experience. Sorry to hear that you're going through such a tough time at the moment, it's not easy and can get rather scary at times.

  • Thank you it's nice to have people to talk to that understand.

    You have all made me do a little cry with happiest and relief that I'm not the only one that sometimes feels like this.

    Sometimes I blame myself and feel that I must have done something really bad to deserve the way I feel through the bad times xx

  • Try not to blame yourself (but I know this is easier said than done!), it's the depression that makes you think along those lines and which turns our own minds against us!

  • Don't blame yourself Jessroo, life throws some pretty bad stuff as us and we have to try deal with it the best we can. Regarding your sertraline it's best to take it in a morning otherwise it will disturb your sleep!! Very vivid dreams!! If your not sure check with your doctor. Have a good day sweetie 😀

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