I'm 44 and lesbian. So what, but it'll help things make sense. I was in a committed relationship with a woman on and off for a few years (until the last time she cheated on me with her ex. She was supposed to come help take care of me after my surgery! Instead, she went to her ex's and left me feeling lower than low. Fast forward to a year ago. She was back at it...trying to get both myself and her ex talking to her againn. Telling both of us that she had nothing to do with the other. So her ex and I started talking. At first it was just about the lying, narcissistic bitch...but then we developed feelings for each other. She was so kind, easy to talk to, just wanted the simple things in life. We were together until she disappeared and she finally answered my texts 5 days later. She was with our ex. Told me she was so sorry for lying to me, that she loved me but not the same way I loved her. You have to understand that her and I talked alot about how we would never do to each other what our ex did to us. And when I give myself to someone, I give everything. I put my soul into it. I'm just so fucking crushed. She told me she'd talk to me so I could have closure. It's been over a month now and I'm still waiting. She KNOW how this feels, because we've both been through it. I just feel like I got hit by a mack truck. Like there's no people like me left in the world...and if there are, I'll never meet them. Why is it so hard for people to be honest, say what they feel and mean what they say?? I'm trying to hang on. I'm just so tired of fighting.