I moved to Spain in December last year, and I suffer with depression and schizophrenia. I've been battling with schizophrenic voices since my relapse in June 2015. I'm not keeping a minimum of hygiene. I have no job. I'm not learning Spanish. I feel depressed. I'm not sure what I should do. My boyfriend is annoyed with me. I can't even go to the shop. I don't get dressed in the morning. Do you think I should go back home? I love my boyfriend but I can't do it any more. Sometimes I feel like giving up. Right now I am sitting on the sofa, which is a small improvement from lying on the sofa. I am in my PJs and I feel like there is a lump in my throat. I have been crying a little bit, mainly because I have no job. Well I do have a job, but I don't enjoy it and I may as well not be getting paid. I don't know what to do. I have contemplated going home in the past but I just don't want to give up hope.