Every day is a battle, three weeks back at work (taking Friday's off - using leave)
Meeting with manager every two weeks.
I am outwardly looking more confident but so much effort just to get to work worried that I am going to slip into another breakdown after coming out of one only 3 weeks ago.
I want to be at work and have been able to get some things done at a reduced rate which is better than being off sick I guess, just hard to square it with myself.
I have a lot of freedom in my job that does allow for this but don't want to be hiding in plain site, thinking of going to HR and getting something a bit more official down as I struggle if things are not black and white.
On a positive note I went and joined a choir on Monday and it was great, so massive for me to do anything social, I just think that effort with work knackered me.
I know I have to work on the social life as well as work or everything will go wrong again, it is just that I have such a limited amount of mental and physical energy at the moment.
Sort work, sort social life, sort mental health, feeling like a roller coaster when all I feel that I can handle is the teacups. I do know that if I only focus on one of those things it will be bad so it has to be all three just at a reduced rate. I hope that work can understand as I have been a very good employee and will be again if I am given the time.
Just wanted to share, off to work now to have another go and a support group tonight. Thanks for being here, Matt