Hi all againnnn! Long time no type!
I've just been sitting in my bed.. Thinking to myself, I've got what I wanted.. I love my job.. I've pasted my driving test and I'm finally on the road... But yet again... No matter how many times I tell myself life is perfect.. It's getting hard again to believe myself.
I don't feel really low like I would do something stupid, but I just can't pick my stupid self up! I'm so frustrated with myself that after everything I've worked for doesn't even seem like it's enough for me?! I don't even know who to talk to anymore, I've cut myself of so much from 'friends' now I just don't know who I can talk to! Who would even care? Who would care that I feel sad and low because to some people they would think 'why are you sad when you've got everything you wanted ', I just feel so lost again! It's like.. I keep myself focuses on what I want.. And then when I'm there it's never enough! It's not even what I thought I wanted! I am proud of myself for achieving what I wanted.. But at the same time I hate myself to much! I just don't know what I'm suppose to do, I just have no one to talk to and just feel... Sad "/
Sorry for posting so late and I'm sorry for rambling but I just needed to rant to someone