Hi all I have always been depressed but this has gotten worse since my last relationship . It ended last year but I can't seem to move on . He had a lot of issues (drugs and health ). I supported and tried to help him , but nothing was ever good enough. I was very considerate , his family friends liked me etc. But he left me out , never stuck up for me , was mean to me and argued against me with everything .
Now I still think of this relationship, he treated me the worst out of everyone he knew . I feel it's because I am ugly ( I was bullied at school ). He's changed the way I think and made me feel unworthy of love (he told me I want too much , I'm this I 'm that ). I keep thinking he will treat his next gf better .
I don't feel worthy of another relationship . Would medication/ counselling help . I'm so sad , I keep looking at happy couples and thinking I don't deserve it . I was a much happier person before I met this person , I dressed differently , felt more attractive and worthy. It's all gone down hill . He's happy without me and I am miserable .I am 26. I feel I am revisiting a time of despair like I did at school where I felt hideously inadequate.