I'm 18 years old and I really struggle to put into words how I feel so I'm trying to do it on here hoping it will be easier.
Most of the time I feel very low, about myself and about my life. I haven't had a particularly difficult life, which makes me feel even more guilty for feeling the way I do. I do have a boyfriend but he doesn't seem to understand the way I feel or react to a lot of things, although he does try and is caring, I just know deep down he doesn't get it. I don't have many friends so I don't socialise much which I hate because I hate being on my own, it makes me feel much worse and I often just find myself crying or moping around and the day seems to go on forever.
I visited my GP a few months ago as I had exams coming up and knew I couldn't afford to be feeling like this otherwise I would ruin my chances of getting a place at university. She gave me medication for anxiety but it didn't help me. I thought I would feel better once my exams were over and I had the summer to enjoy but I have hardly any plans and just find myself wasting my days.
this is how I feel most of the time, but sometimes I feel extremely happy and can't contain my excitement, but it all seems to come crashing down quickly. Sometimes I feel normal, usually after a period of feeling low, but then I find myself being very temperamental and I can snap very easily.
I'm just not sure what's going on, I'm sorry this post is so long but I just need some help