Since my last post, I have completely split up from my boyfriend. I now know in my head there is no going back, he's tried to blame it all on me. I've blocked his number, his Facebook and his email but he seems to keep making new email addresses to try and contact me still. This past week has been really tough I've had my days where I've tried to keep busy and focus that what I am doing is for the best, but yesterday stupidly I answered a phone call from him to find him crying down the phone to me begging for me be and it made me feel so terrible because I know I can't go back because I don't trust him however despite this, in the past week, he has been giving his number to other girls, been going out to town every night with his friends, some of my friends have seen him approaching random girls and I've found out more and more lies he's told me. So obviously he can't be that bothered about losing me if he's doing what he's doing, oh and adding all his past hook ups back on Facebook. He then today changes his tune and emails me saying he's done nothing wrong to me what so ever which is the biggest insult as he can't take no blame. So in a way this has made me realise that I don't wanna be with someone who can do that to me. I guess at night the lonliness kicks in. And sometimes I think to myself "what if he finds someone and treats them the way I've always wanted him to treat me" because like I said we planned a future together and that's all now in peices. How long am I going to feel this way for? Because I am miserable right now and hurting but I'm just waiting in hope that I will be happy. I feel very on my own and I'm scared I'll never feel the way I did with him with any one else as i really loved him so much.