Where do I start? I'm new to this and it's definitely way out of my comfort zone but I have seen a lot of posts that I can completely relate too.
I'm 22, I've had a difficult up bringing I was in a children's home at the age of 6 and have been in and out of care pretty much all my life. I hate talking about this as it's quite pathetic but I'm sure it's a contributing factor to how I have been feeling for as long as I can remember.
I have always known I'm not like everyone else I am not 'normal' but it's been my normal, it's just me. I have mood swings out of my control and it affects the ones closest to me. I cry A LOT which is something my now boyfriend can't deal with and he doesn't understand that sometimes I cry for no reason. And I understand that it must make him feel bad but I just can't help it. I feel pathetic, a nobody and have suicidal thoughts on a regular basis.
I have been on citalipram for just shy of a year now and I have been in touch with an organisation who have arranged a telephone interview to discuss my options of therapy.
I almost feel as though it's too late for me I feel like I'm about to loose it all I have told one person how I feel and I'm too embarrassed to tell my boyfriend as I just know he won't understand and I couldn't think of anything worse than to loose him although I drive him to the point of insanity.
I don't know what normal is anymore I don't know how I feel which makes it all the more difficult to explain.
Sorry it's such a long post I could go on forever I know I'm not alone in feeling like this but it feels like it sometimes.